Comments on: What is PAWS (Post-Acute Withdrawal Syndrome)?

By: brie

brie — Tue, 06 Dec 2011 00:19:03 +0000

to all who have supported me, thank you. but i feel this is a battle i am losing. have hooked up with my friendly dealer, anything for a buck right? always accomodating. but i am still not ready to give up. i WILL try again. so…… so……. don’t know what to say at this point. i feel like shit cuz i did suffer and i tried so hard. but live got in the way. life is crazy and scary and hard. but i am sure you all know that. so again thanks for all the support. God bless

By: Kitty Mom

Kitty Mom — Tue, 22 Nov 2011 14:38:03 +0000

Hi Brie – You can absolutely trust the people on this site to listen and not be judgemental because we have all been through this as you have. Please keep posting and I pray that you make the decision to quit soon – and if not, we will be with you regardless. I have an email address that you can write to if you need any one on one. it is
kittymom001@gmail.com.
Oh – and there is one more you can trust and without Him, I could not have made it almost 15 month.
God bless you Brie and stay in touch.
Kitty

By: brie

brie — Tue, 22 Nov 2011 03:54:33 +0000

SD, you are so right, i havn’t told him and i am falling back into my old habit. a little at a time ofcourse but i fear the worst. God help me but i feel i can’t share this with anyone. thank you for your words of support. i am not ready to give up on myself. just not sure what i am ready to to do or who i am ready to trust. God bless and again thank you

By: brie

brie — Tue, 22 Nov 2011 03:48:35 +0000

SD,

By: SD

SD — Mon, 15 Aug 2011 09:52:25 +0000

@ Brie – Quitting is a small fraction of the battle. Staying clean is the war. If I were you, I would tell my spouse. You’ll need his support. If he is mature and understanding, he’ll be proud of you. I know I would. If you don’t tell him or others and create a support system it will be too easy to slip back into denial and addiction – which is a life threatening illness. Find a meeting as well. AA, NA, Al-Anon are all great resources where you’ll find someone who has or is going through the EXACT same thing. You are not alone. You don’t have to go it alone. Don’t listen to your ego, which is most likely telling you you have to do this by yourself. Your ego is wrong! Let go and let god. Be well.

By: brie

brie — Tue, 26 Jul 2011 16:14:25 +0000

not sure why am writing this, i guess it is because i have no one to tell. my addiction to vicodin started over ten, yes ten years ago. i had a hit and run car accident which kept me out of work for months. the drugs helped me through the day but once i was physically ok, i kept taking the drugs because i liked how i felt and who i was. happier, more energy and i thought i had it under control. working in healthcare, there was always a way to get the vicodins. but the years passed and my tolerance grew. no longer did a half give me the same feeling, then a whole 7.5, didn’t do it either. the first thing when i woke up was take a vicodin. then it when to one and a half, then two just to get myself going. for the last 2 or 3 years it has been two in the morning and one and a half every three hours. getting scripts and using 3 to 4 different phamacys. then even that wasn’t enought. ah, here comes my new best friend, some one who dealt. i was buying 100 pills a week, in addition to my scripts. paying about 600.00 to 800.00 dollars every paycheck. how the hell did i get here! i had even gotten up to 3 tabs every 3 hours. and even 5 minutes late and i was an animal. i needed to get out of this hell hole. NO ONE except my dealer and my accommodating MD knew. i have a wonderful life, a fabulous husband and a amazing son. no one knew and i could never tell them. so what do i do? i had tried a few time, usually because i couldn’t get any but it never worked. cuz eventually i got them. till 10 days ago, i had enough. the money i was spending was disgaceful. so i just stopped. told my dealer, don’t give me any, even if i beg. told my MD i was going to try and get off this roller coaster. (haven’t seen him yet) it is the hardest thing i have ever done. the pain was so bad i though i would die and even looked in my secret hiding places for just one or two vicodins. thank god i couldn’t find any. yes i had many secret hiding places. but 10 days in and i’m OK, i think. i am suffering all the typical side effects. sleep, mood swings and general fatigue seem to effects me the most. i just keep telling myself “hey, you made it one more day”. i try and stay focused on a clean future and what i can provide my family with the money i’m not spending on drugs. well kids that is pretty much my story. i know i am not out of the woods yet but “one day at a time”. that’s all i can do. and if i can do it after an addiction that has spand over a decade. you can too. you just have to want it bad enough. oh, one more thing, i did take time off from work, had three weeks of vacation saved, because i could never do this while working. and here is another crazy thing, i told the job is was taking off to have elective surgery(tummy tuck), which i did! but as a true addict i took most of my post-op pain meds before surgery. so four days after the surgery i had nothing. well 15 valiums. which was like an aspirin to me. but i’m doing ok. and my husband and my son are my motivation. maybe someday i will tell my husband…maybe. good luck to anyone else ready to get off the ride. don’t give up. keep trying. it’s worth it. peace and love to all…i have walked in your shoes. there is no other way than to just STOP. it’s gonna suck, but the rewards are worth it. don’t let your addiction get as bad as mine. remember over a decade. it can happen easier than you think.

By: Vince

Vince — Sat, 09 Jul 2011 21:54:36 +0000

I was taking subs for a year and a half about 1mg. per day i stoped in april and now its july after 5weeks i couldnt take the withdrawals any more so i started taking a half 7.5 vicodine twice a day i still have deppression and that burning feeling cant get well please help me.

By: Spsencer

Spsencer — Sun, 15 May 2011 18:45:02 +0000

Hi my name is Spencer, I was addicted to oxycodone on and off for about 2 and a half years now I was on saboxone for the past 7 months I recently detoxed off the saboxone and am clean now. The detoxing part was tarrable I did it by my self with 0 support I was in shock of how good i felt after detoxing. Now I have paws and its tarrable I have been 10 days clean how long will this depression last? I keep drinking caffine and it just make sthe physical withdrawls kick in more.

By: Depressed in PA

Depressed in PA — Thu, 10 Feb 2011 23:03:44 +0000

This article saved my life. The information here never surfaced anywhere else in all of my research about the depression and suicidal thoughts I was having. I am going to see a doctor asap and see what we can do to get this under control I was on Vicodin from March thru December, first for pinched nerve, then disc replacement surgery, then a broken leg and although I had heard about addiction I never heard about this awful out of body depression experience. This week I started having chest pains and anxiety attacks and I had no idea how it could all be related. Now I do. Thank you.

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