Comments on: How to Deal With Post-Withdrawal Depression

By: bill

bill — Mon, 30 Jan 2012 22:38:28 +0000

hi,i am 44 yrs old and had been taking 20 to 25 vicoden a day,they where 10-325.my script was for 84 pills a week,i was out in three days.i also got some from another doc 750-750,150 a month and yes i am still alive.ive been clean for one week,my gut still hurts,and my deppression is bad.i almost have to remimber what it feels like to feel again,its truly awful to go threw this but i will survive.i had been on these for a yearand i hope no one has to feel the way i do.

By: Kitty Mom

Kitty Mom — Sun, 22 Jan 2012 12:31:44 +0000

Jenny, Welcome to the site and I pray that you overcome your addiction. I applaud those that try to taper because I think it takes more guts and willpower than I could ever muster up. As long as their were pills, I would gobble them up. So, I but the ole bullet and went Cold Turkey. That way, the really bad hell only lasted about 4 days except for the sleeping – that did not return for a couple of weeks. When I was on the pills, I had withdrawal every single day and had to take my doses closer and closer until I knew I was going to kill myself if I did not stop. So, if I can do it, you can too. Whatever way you decide, I wish you the very best and hope and pray that you conquer this. This site is testimony that it can and has been done. Get on your knees if you have to and pray and take each day or minute at a time until you realize that you are through it and alive and start feeling once again.
I have been clean now 16 months and have friends on here that are a year ahead of me and some coming up behind me. If you need our help we are here.
Love and Hope
Kitty

By: hadenough

hadenough — Fri, 20 Jan 2012 21:26:15 +0000

Jenny, 1st in order for the taper to work, You have to really I mean Really want to quit. I have been where you are and am currently taking 3-4 a day. It’s been Hard as hell but I just keep telling myself if I ever want to see my grand kids That I cant give in. I started by only taking a couple when I was starting to feel sick. But only then. I have lumbar issues that started all this crap years ago. But I have decided to try and deal with the pain. and I’m scheduled for knee surgery in 2 weeks that has me nervous as hell. Every time you get the urge to take some, get on this site and read. That seemed to help sometimes. If you can make the taper work it has to be better than C/T because for most they feel hell for a few days. but tapering is really hard when you have a full Rx sitting there. Good luck and stay strong.
HadEnouh

By: Jenny

Jenny — Thu, 19 Jan 2012 15:40:18 +0000

Pls help — trying to kick a 3 yr addiction to vicodin. Have been taking about 300mg/d, have been running through them at this level for the past yr and a half. I’m going to pick up #90 this weekend and want to start a taper but afraid I won’t have the willpower to go thru with this. I work in healthcare so the shame factor is severe and feel like I can’t turn to anyone. I have a great husband, great kids, but they have no idea. I feel like I’m living a lie, but so afraid of the alternative.

By: Jenny

Jenny — Thu, 19 Jan 2012 15:37:49 +0000

Hi there – so glad I found this site. I’ve been using 20-30 of 10mg viks for past 3 yrs and need so badly to quit. To compound this, I’m recuperating from a broken leg. This wkend will be picking up my last script for #90 and want to start a taper but don’t know if I have the willpower to go thru with it. Pls help. I have a wonderful husband, kids, great house, great life, but hate being saddled with this addiction.

By: Fallen

Fallen — Fri, 07 Oct 2011 17:28:25 +0000

I’m on day 9 off subutex and today it hit. Like you, this is exactly what led me to relapse. I can’t relapse. I’m pregnant. Yet feeling this way is torture.

I’m going to try your suggestions and pray it works. I’ve been crying all day. I feel so dead inside and have no motivation.

How long will this last???

By: unkewl

unkewl — Mon, 03 Oct 2011 18:06:09 +0000

Iv taken 60-120 morphine for the past year either every day or ever other day. Just got over the acute withdrawal and I have to say I think most people are tricked into feeling like shit after thats over from doctors and this crap all over the net. What they wont tell you is all it takes is acceptance of the real reason you took the drug and the realization that it altered your mind during those times. I have no paws , no lack of energy , no depression. Although I guess it could be just a “things effect each person differently”. Either way strength your mind and accept the reasons why you used and why you want to quit and your good to go. If you dont want to use opiates you wont crave them.

By: Pen South

Pen South — Mon, 26 Sep 2011 00:59:56 +0000

Anybody: I took 120 to150 mg of
vicodin for about 4 years. Prior to that had a “modest ” habit of maybe 20 mg. for about 10 years. i have been completely off vicodin for three months, and feel no craving for it, but am NOT NORMAL. Brain fog, apathy, depression….wondering if it is posible I have done permanent brain damage. Has anyone done this much, and gotten back to normal? If so, how long????? Thanks.

By: Pinkerton

Pinkerton — Tue, 06 Sep 2011 10:08:55 +0000

Hi Climbing Out,
I know exactly what you mean when you say that you wake up and think “oh shit” I went through that for a long time. I felt like I would never shake that feeling of desperation…but it did eventually go away. What helped me was keeping busy and continues to help. Also, my kids were out of school at the time I first went through this and so I didn’t have that sense of urgency when I woke up, but now I have to get moving quickly and don’t have time to think about anything….that has also helped. I know that your energy level is low but push yourself even when you don’t feel like it and then push further. For one, you will wear yourself down and hopefully release some endorphins along the way and then second you will feel good about whatever it is you can accomplish. Just sharing what has helped me. I’m still not the happiest person in the world but I wasn’t before I ever heard of a vicodin. I have realize that I have to accept who I am and work from there. I am never going to feel as good as I did on the pills. Good luck!

Pinkerton

By: Sunshine

Sunshine — Tue, 06 Sep 2011 07:40:49 +0000

hey guys,
I am currently a 21 year old senior studying Accounting and Economics at Rutgers University in New Jersey. My childhood best friend, which i’ve known all of my life sells 30mg Oxy (roxys/blues)..About a year ago he told me how nice it feels to just snort a line and head to a party.. that i did..and that’s where this journey of mine began. For the last year i began using about 30-60mg of Oxy a day (was only up to 60mg for the last 3 months or so). When i first started using i must say that i was depressed and Oxy’s made all of my physical and mental anguish disappear. However, after spending 2-3,000 on this sh*t have i learned that it isn’t the cure for a happy, and normal life. i decided to get clean 6 days ago, and this will hopefully be the last time i say this. I am an avid exerciser, it is my ant-drug. Some days when i’m feeling sh*tty i’ll force myself to the gym and bang out a few sets of curls and dumbbell presses and i must say that it helps the PAWS. For everyone going through this, THERE IS A LIGHT TO THE END OF THE TUNNEL. i am 6 days clean and honestly i feel pretty decent.

I will make sure i frequent this sight often and will try to keep in touch.

Life isn’t easy.

Persevere. (Just got that tatted across my back this morning)

-Sunshine